USS Clueless: Earth to Timi

Just looking at the casket made my head spin. The moment was made worse when the American flag was draped over his casket and my cousin Ketia laid her head on my shoulder and began to sob uncontrollably. I did my best to keep my composure. I just pressed my head against the crown of her head & closed my eyes. I'm glad that I didn't attend the funeral.

I was more angry than sad. I was angry because my cousin shouldn't have died in the manner that he did. I was angry because the murderer is still on the loose. I was angry that I was sitting in a graveyard awaiting my cousin't body to be lowered 6 feet deep. I was angry that Aaron is no longer around to make me smile. But...as my mother would say. You can cry and be angry, but you have to move on. So, now the task for me is to move on because I know that I'll see him again someday.

I've had "Fragile Heart" by Yolanda Adams on my mind all day. That could be because I had it on repeat for a couple of hours. LOL. I'm not a huge Yolanda Adams fan, but man I love this song. This song & Breath Into Me by Fred Hammond have truly gotten me through some hard times.

I've added a link to Yolanda Adam's song. Please do not direct link to my mp3. Right click on the file and save it to your own computer. I will remove the file if anyone jacks the link. I appreciate it & my bandwidth appreciates you. Thank you very much.

On A Side Note...

I'm watching the NFL Kick-Off and Mary J. Blige sang the Star Spangled Banner. I thought she'd sound a complete mess. I also thought she'd go into one of her dramatic fits while singing (as she is well known to do). But Mrs. Mary fooled me. I was thoroughly impressed with her performance. That's all I have to say about that.