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November 29, 2004
Who Nose
I spent my morning in the ER. I hate going to the hospital. I'm a walking talking medical emergency. The nurses in the ER know me by name and face. I'm usually in the ER to my clumsiness. I've broken or sprained just about every major bone (with the exception of my neck & spine) in my body, so trips to the ER are almost norm. Today I wasn't at the ER for a broken bone. I was there for what, at first guess, appeared to be a seizure.
That's worrisome because I'm not at all epileptic. I've never had a seizure before in life. Prior to this morning, I'd been feeling bad all week. I started feeling a little fatigued last Monday, but I was still on my cycle, so I assumed that was the cause. I sometimes feel fatigued & tired while on my period so I didn't sweat it. Tuesday arrives & I feel the same way. A headache developed, but I blamed that on stress.
Wednesday roles around, and nothing has changed. I had a huge headache, but I scoffed it off because I volunteered to make Thanksgiving deliveries for that day. As the day progressed, I began to feel really terrible. I came home & I layed down. On Thanksgiving day, I felt a little better. I cooked, I joked around with family and all that good stuff. I noticed on Thursday evening that my nose began to bleed. It wasn't excessive bleeding. It was the kind of bleeding that could be caused by sinus issues. I've had minor spotting in my nose before due to my sinuses, so I didn't sweat it.
Friday & Saturday pass with no let up on my symptoms. I'm beginning to think that I'm catching a sinus infection or something. By Sunday, I was laying in bed feeling like crap. I had a headache that was out of this world, and I was feeling extremely dizzy. My cousin advised me to go to the hospital, but I refused. I began to feel better later in the eveninging. My nose began bleeding more profusely. That frightened me because I've never had a serious nosebleed. The bleeding stopped for a while. I thought that it was done. I took some meds for the headache, and at about 2am I fell asleep on the couch.
I'm not sure how long I'd been asleep, but I awakened with the feeling that I was choking. I couldn't stop myself from choking. I had a serious piercing feeling in my head. My brother was awake & he said that he happened to look over at me & saw me shaking. I assume that it freaked him out because he began yelling. I could hear him yelling, but at that point I was only trying to breath. I couldn't breath out of my nose & I was gasping to breath from my mouth. That was the worst feeling ever. An ambulance was called. My brother grabbed me. He turned me over & began to push on my back. My airway clear slightly. I was lying on my stomach, and I felt my brother holding my arms & my shoulders. I stopped shaking.
I couldn't move though. The piercing in my head was horrible. My brother called my aunt. I think she arrived before the ambulance. I could hear them talking, but I couldn't respond. My aunt told my brother to keep me on my stomach, so that I wouldn't begin choking again. My brother said that had to move me because I was laying in a puddle of blood. Blood was coming from my mouth & my nose. I think that I was choking on the blood from nose. The ambulance arrived to take me to the hospital.
While at the hospital, the doctors were poking & proding me. I was asked if I knew where I was. I said yes. I complained about my headache. My brother brought a shirt for me to wear because the shirt I'd been wearing was covered in blood. The doctors initial diagnosis was a seizure. Then the doc recinded that diagnosis. There was no evidence that I'd suffered a seizure. I told the doctor that I had a splitting headache & the room was spinning. I couldn't barely breath out of my nose too. I was sent to get a CAT Scan. The scan appeared to be normal. There appeared to be some kind of pressure spot inside my brain that worried the doc a little. It looked like a little foggy space in my head on the x-ray.
I was asked if I had hit my head. I said no. I was asked if headaches occurred regularly. I said yes. A few more tests were run on me. At that time it was 8am. I'd arrived a few hours earlier. I asked if I could go home, the nurse said no. I couldn't be sent home until the doctor was confident that I was ok. The doc was worried because I'd had a similar problem before. That time I had to have fluid removed from my spine to figure out what was going on in my head. That was horrible. I was hoping that I wouldn't have to have one of those again. Also, the same exact thing happened to my father a few years back and his diagnosis was a stroke. The doc ruled out a stroke, so what happened to me was a mystery.
By the end of the morning, I'd been diagnosed with severed nose bleeding & vertigo. I was given meds, and allowed to leave at about 12something in the afternoon. I made an appointment to see the brain doctor tomorrow. We just want to be certain that there's no serious issues evolving the cranial area.
I feel much better this evening. My nose hasn't bled since I left the hospital. I've had a nap. My head feels better, so I'm sure all will be well. It's a good thing that my couch is leather or else it would've been really difficult to remove the blood from it. I'm extremely thankful for my brother. I don't know what I would've done had I been the only person home at that time. Angels were certainly looking out for me.
Posted by Timi at 9:59 PM
Turkey Day Recap
Thanksgiving was cool. I spent the holiday with a bunch of my family. We had a huge family dinner, and I helped to cook. Yes. I COOKED. I did a good job of it too...if I may say so myself.
I wasn't feeling so hot, but I stuck around. My fam started to pound the last nerve. I didn't stick around too long. If I had, I would've started plucking heads.
Posted by Timi at 5:09 PM
November 24, 2004
Psalm 136:26
Happy Thanksgiving Everyone! May you all enjoy the holiday with friends & family.
Posted by Timi at 7:33 PM
Rejected!
I was looking at my MT Blacklist stats today. MT Blacklist for MT 3.121 is outrageous. Since the day I decided to upgrade from MT 2.66 to MT 3.12 (which was September 1), Blacklist has rejected 797 comment spam from my site. That's great! Just today alone, 70 comment spam were rejected from my site. Spammers are real persistant losers (especially that bob@y character). They even try to spam my private blog. How they get access, I do not know. What I do know is that when I check my blacklist log, I see spam attempts made on that site.
So if you haven't upgraded to MT 3+, you are truly missing out on a God-send. I'd encourage anyone using MT versions 2.6 & below to upgrade to experience the joy of comment rejection on your site. It's wonderful!
Posted by Timi at 7:18 PM
November 22, 2004
Don't Push Me
Hey, you want WHAT with me?! I'm gonna tell you one time, don't mess with me! Get down! Cause I ain't got nothin' to lose, and I'm havin a bad day. Don't make me take it out on you! -Ludacris, Get Back
There is just something about a woman during her time of the month that should forwarn people to just stay away. Is it just me, or does it always seem as if people want to test a woman's last nerve when her least favorite aunty is visiting that one time every month. It's like a sign on my forehead that says, HELLO I'M ON MY PERIOD. PLEASE DO SOMETHING STUPID TO UPSET ME.
A woman is most dangerous when she's angry, scorned, bitter & on her period. I've said this before. A woman is 20 times more evil when she's flowing, so just step back homey. Women are more likely to kill during this period. Okay...that's not a scientific fact, but I'm willing to bet money that the majority of women who've gone on killing rages have either been or about to come on their period. Look it up. Cramps are a monster. Really bad cramps can make a woman lose all of her senses and go crazy. And I'm not talking about mild discomfort here. I'm talking about the kind of cramps that makes a woman wish that she were paralyzed from the abdomen down because it hurts to stand, walk, turn and sit. These are the cramps that can send a woman into rage because Midol, Advil, Aleve, Tylenol w/ Codeine and any other pain medicine that you can think of just isn't doing the job! A man will NEVER understand this pain.
It's not nice to upset me during this time. If I'm caught off guard, I just may forget that "Love Thy Neighbor" thing. Lis said it best.
It just occured to me. If God want's us to love everyone, all the time, why does he allow women to deal with PMS? That is like an oxymoron. love + pms = not happening...
Exactly! So why push me? I've already told you that I'm cramping & moody. LEAVE ME ALONE! If you don't bother, then I won't claw your eyes out. That was a joke! Seriously, sometimes I like to be left alone in peace. Don't ruin that or I'll get a serious attitude. Today a co-worker had to find out the hard way.
I was sitting at my desk minding my own business. I was looking over some files for a client when Shawn approaches me from behind and starts playing in my hair. I flung my right hand back to shoo him off. I said, "Stop it Shawn. I'm not in the mood right now." He contines to twirl his fingers in my hair. Again, I said, "Stop Shawn!" He thinks I'm joking with me. He touch the collar on my shirt and says, "What is this Velvet?" On any other day, I would've laughed at that, but today I didn't find it funny. I got up from the desk, I walked over to the copier & made a few copies. Shawn was on my heels. He was doing it to annoy me. I warned him. I said, "If I tell you stop one more time, I'm going to hit you."
He didn't listen. I sat down once more. He picks up a picture on my desk & begins to play with it as if it's a puppet. On any other day, I probably would've laughed. Not today. Today iwas not a good day for jokes. He starts to twirl his finger towards the side of my face. Before he touched my face...*SWACK*. I punched the heck out of him. I think I stunned him because he looked at me in shock. He said, "Ow. Why'd you do that?" I was like, I TOLD YOU TO STOP! He said that he was only playing, but that's not the point. I said that I was not in a good mood, and would prefer to be left alone. He didn't listen.
Let that be a lesson. Stop means stop. Proceed at your own risk.
Posted by Timi at 9:27 PM
November 21, 2004
Current Events
My take on the news headlines
National Stuff
30 games is not enough. Ron Artest should be suspended for the rest of the year. He even punched the wrong guy. The guy he went after didn't hit him with the beer. These players get paid way too much to conduct themselves in this manner. It's absurb. I was watching the Detroit game when the fight broke out at The Palace (which is interesting because I don't like basketball). Ben Wallace is a drama queen. He overreacted to the hard foul by Ron Artest. And what in the world was Steven Jackson thinking? He must've thought that he was at the Vibe Awards or something. A 20 game suspension is not enough for him either. Did you see the hook that Jermaine O'Neal put on the chunky guy? Priceless.
[edit] The press releases keep changing, but for now Ron Artest has been tossed for the for the year without pay.
NEW YORK (AP) -- Ron Artest was suspended for the rest of the season Sunday as the NBA came down hard on three members of the Indiana Pacers for fighting with fans when a melee broke out at the end of a game against the Detroit Pistons.
Overall, nine players from the teams were banned for 143 games, including some of the harshest penalties the league ever issued. Artest is the first player to be suspended for nearly an entire season for a fight during a game.
Indiana's Stephen Jackson was suspended for 30 games and Jermaine O'Neal for 25. Detroit's Ben Wallace -- whose shove of Artest after a foul led to the 5-minute fracas -- drew a six-game ban, while Pacers guard Anthony Johnson got five games.
Four players were suspended for a game apiece: Indiana's Reggie Miller, and Detroit's Chauncey Billups, Elden Campbell and Derrick Coleman.
All of the suspensions are without pay.
Artest, O'Neal and Jackson -- who all threw punches at fans in the stands or on the court at the end of the nationally televised Pacers-Pistons game Friday night -- began serving their suspensions Saturday. Indiana, limited to just six players because of the suspensions and injuries, dropped an 86-83 decision to Orlando.
PARIS - Major economic powers agreed on Saturday to write off billions of dollars of debt for Iraq, the French Finance Ministry said, in a deal that marked a significant step in U.S. efforts to help put the Iraqi economy back on its feet.
For the life of me, even as a Christian, I can't understand why these people are so hardpressed about a federal ban on gay marriage. This is a state issue. It's amazing to me how these people can condemn gays, yet turn a deaf ear to poverty & homelessness. Don't misunderstand me. I'm not for gay marriage, but Homosexuality is not to blame for the current desheveled state of marriage. You have heterosexuals to blame for that one. Divorce, infidelity, dishonest & many other factors are at fault for the corrosion of the marriage institution. Will somebody please tell me how the marriage of Ronald & Tyrone is going to affect my (heterosexual) marriage with my husband?
People are just way too sensitive. I saw the Monday Night Football Skit, and though I thought it was dumb, I wasn't offended. In fact, the only thing that people should've been offended at was TO's acting. Now that was really horrible. I have issues with the people who believe that TO or ABC did something wrong. The funny thing is, TO was only going along with a ready made script. It's not like he made it up himself. Poor TO. Anything this brotha does is going to be scrutinized. How can you condemn the skit yet condone commercials for erectile disfunction (which also aired in the same broadcast). You know those commercials. The ones that say, "You remember that guy that used to be called 'Wild Thing'. He's back." It's ok to air ads to help your penile deficiency, but it's outrageous for a white woman to be seen jumping into the arms of a black man.
Not a bad a choice for President. Right now, I think I'll settle for anyone butGovenor BoboArnold Schwarzenegger or Rudy Guiliani.
Wierd Stuff
BEIJING (Reuters) - An elephant that stamped on his keeper at a Chinese zoo in the mating season and crushed him to death has been declared innocent because of mitigating circumstances, Xinhua news agency has said.
Hu Tianmin was cleaning the elephant house at the zoo in Kunming, capital of Yunnan province, in August when the five-tonne, 20-year-old male Asian elephant named "Zhongbo" lifted him up, threw him to the ground and stamped on him.
"The production safety administration in Kunming confirmed that the victim was responsible for his own tragedy because he had entered the elephant pen all alone and without adopting any protective measures, in violation of zoo rules," Xinhua said on Sunday.
Finally, somebody got it right. An animal is not to be blamed when it attacks a human being. Humans just don't get it. Leave the animals alone. Bad things happen when you try to domesticate wild animals. Just ask Roy!
Looks to be that there may be some kindness & humanity left in America. I'd like to believe that the young men who returned the purse, did it out of compassion & honesty. But even they didn't know that the purse contained $43,000. I wonder would they had returned the purse if they knew the money had been present? I know I would have...honestly!
RIYADH (Reuters) - A furious Saudi bride has beaten up a woman who photographed her with a mobile phone camera at her wedding party, a local newspaper reports.
The bride "beat up the woman, completely destroyed her phone and pulled her by the hair in front of a big crowd of guests" for taking pictures in the women-only section of the wedding at Taif, in western Saudi Arabia, Al-Jazirah daily said on Sunday.
That's crazy. She straight snatched a chick up for taking her picture. And she was applauded for it. LOL
Opinions
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From the mouth of Timi
Posted by Timi at 1:34 PM
November 18, 2004
Selfish
I am selfish. I have a tendency to believe that the world revolves around me. I'm self-centered. I believe that nobody in the world is feeling my pain, so therefore they can't relate to or understand me. I am very selfish. I go through miles & miles of stress without talking to people because I don't feel that they'll "get it". So my selfishness leads me to isolate myself from people & my surroundings.
I have a "me" mentality. I can't exactly pinpoint when this selfish nature overtook me, but I've been this way since a child. My mother used to say that I got it from my father. My father said that I received it from my mother. I don't know where it came from, but it hasn't left me which makes me a bit problematic.
I don't have a clear way in which I deal with my issues. The easiest & most convenient way (expelling everyone out of my life) is the worst way to deal with them. I feel silly being 25 years of age & still unable to deal with my issues in a more mature manner. I should, at least, be able to articulate (thoroughly) my emotions and thoughts. Most of the time I can't do that. Well it's not an issue of can't. It's more an issues of won't. Why won't I do it? I don't know. I don't know is my answer for everything.
What is wrong with you? I don't know. Why do you feel that way? I don't know. Why are you acting like this? I don't know. How do you feel? I don't know. What do you want? I DON'T KNOW.
In actuality, I do know...I'm just reluctant to give answers. I hate being in the "hot seat". It's makes me feel vulnerable. I don't like feeling vulnerable. It makes me feel as if I'm left in the middle of an ocean, on a small boat with no life jacket. I always keep my guard raised, only lowering it when I feel like it. It becomes an issue of pride. I don't want to be seen crying. I don't want to be known as the chick with issues. I try to suck it up and keep moving.
My selfish pride turns alot of people off. Especially those that care the most about me & I about them. It not only turns them off, but it hurts them as well. I'm hurting myself too, which is not a good thing. I don't want to hurt those that I love. I don't want to turn folks away. I want to be able to "release" freely without the hinderances of my own pride or selfishness.
I want to ask for help without believing that folks will think that I'm needy or that I have issues. I want to be able to talk to someone and cry without thinking that they may not understand. There are some folks that I share almost everything with, but when it comes to personal issues, I shut them out. I don't want to continue doing that.
I understand that there are deeper underlying issues (stemming from childhood) that I need to address. My normal "this is how I deal with my problems" is not going to work. I need to be honest with myself & with others. Otherwise, I'll keep pushing people away until I have nobody to listen to me when I do want to "tell my story" (if you will).
I'm trying to overcome this obstacle. I realize that everything isn't always about me. I know that other people hurting just like myself. My issues are not one of a kind. God didn't create me so that I would sit in my own corner of the world and cry about how much humanity sucks. He wouldn't put more on me than I can bear. And I know that he's helping me to lessen my burdens on a daily basis. It is a struggle to "die daily"...meaning...putting aside my own selfishness & self-centeredness to look at the "bigger picture". I do not fully understand the "bigger picture", but I understand that I must keep faith, knowing that I'll overcome.
Posted by Timi at 12:31 AM
November 16, 2004
Returning Shortly
I'll be back up & writing in a couple of days. There is so much going on in my life (career & family wise) that I really have little time to sit down & write a full entry. I'm mad stressed, and I don't know what to do with myself. So, keep me in your prayers. Pray that I may keep my sanity & my strength at a really difficult time in my life. Thanks.
Posted by Timi at 4:31 PM
November 12, 2004
Nobody Said It Was Easy
Romans 7
21It seems to be a fact of life that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong.
This is how I sum up my sometimes wishy washy relationship with God. It's not easy. Sometimes I feel like the Apostle Paul when he writes, "Oh wretched man that I am. Who will save me from this body of death?". Why is it that we as humans always find a way to screw up big time. It's like life isn't normal unless you do something really stupid. Then that somehow brings our existence full circle. We aren't spotless. We aren't perfect, but somehow grace & mercy continue to uphold us.
I struggle with alot of things in my life. I struggle with self-doubt, lust, the consequences of poor decisions and various other things. Sometimes I'll sit up and ask aloud, "What is wrong with me?" I never answer myself because I don't know the answer. I don't know the answer, but I do know who knows the answer.
I try to fix my own problems, which only makes the situation worse most of the time. I can't do it by myself. I realize that, but it's also a hard realization to come to. I know that God has the answers to everything. Sometimes God doesn't answer my questions in the manner that I need them to be answered. He does it on His time. It's pretty selfish of me to expect His time to be my time...which is how I think alot of the time.
I'm listening to Coldplay's "The Scientist" and I'm feeling a bit cathartic right now. I want to go back to the start. God is the scientist and I need to talk. He know's the solution to life's equations. He can solve my life's quagmire. I wish that I could just sit down with God (face to face) and ask Him everything that I can think of. Who? What? When? How? Me & G-O (I heard my little cousin use this expression for God & I thought it was funny) need a good heart to heart.
The Scientist
Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart
Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start
Posted by Timi at 12:43 AM
November 9, 2004
Idle Conversations
I have some interesting conversations on a day to day basis. So I'm lacking the time to finish my super-serious post right now, I'm going to post exerpts from conversations conversations that I've been having with folks.
In The Office
Me: Is a carrot a root or a bulb?
Angie: It grows in the ground. I think it's a root
Me: And a beet is a bulb right?
Angie: I guess
Me: And an onion is a bulb too.
Angie: I guess
Me: So what's a potato?
Angie: Ummm...it's a starch.
Angie rolled her eyes and walked away from me after that answer. I don't think she was interested in taking the conversation any further.
At A Freshman Football Game
Nikki: Why do they keep tacklin each other?
Me: Because that's what they're supposed to do.
Nikki: When does the game end?
Me: When either team scores the most points by the end of the 4th quarter.
Nikki: Will they go to 10?
Me: 10 quarters?
Nikki: No. Are they playing to 10 points?
Me: This isn't street ball Nicole
Nikki: Oh. Can I go sit in the car?
Mase Is Preachin
Janie: Mase is supposed to be preachin at UD tonight.
Me: So I've heard
Janie: Who told you?
Me: A friend who still attends UD
Janie: Oh. Are you going?
Me: Uhhh no.
Janie: *laughs* Why you say it like that?
Me: like what?
Janie: Like I offended you by asking.
Me: I'm not offended. You just know me well enough to know that I wouldn't go see Mase preach.
Janie: *laughs again* Why?
Me: Do I need to give an explanation. I'm not interested in attending.
Janie: Everyone is well aware of you disdain for "big time" evangelists.
Me: Right. But I am intrigued.
Janie: Mase intrigues you? *she laughs again*
Me: I wonder if he'll perform "Breath, Stretch, Shake"
Janie: He'll be preaching T
Me: And? Why would that stop him from performing? It hasn't already.
Janie: You are sick. Of all his songs, why would he perform that one.
Me: Hey! Breath, Stretch, Shake would be an awesome intermission song. And then after intermission, he could perform "Welcome Back".
Janie: You need help
Me: Breath, Stretch, Shake would make an catchy sermon. *in my best preacher voice* "Breath in to me oh Lord. Huh. The breath of life. Stretch your spirit within me God. Huh. Renew God. SHAKE!...huh...the Devil off...huh. And God says, LET IT GO!"
Janie: Preach Preacha!
Me: *I start to dance* Let the church join in. BREATH STRETCH SHAKE. LET IT GO. BREATH STRETCH SHAKE. LET IT GO.
Janie: I can see that.
Me: Me too...Seriously
On Film Shorts & Televangelists
skillxiii: So it's all action!
skillxiii: now I can see it..
skillxiii: so BAM it opens and she's pacing talking to herself, and then BAM in walks an aide and then BAM a reporter is here, and then BAM Elton John is on the phone, and then BAM T.D. Jakes is on the phone too and then BAM in walks her over-the-top friend
U S S Clueless: Yea...something like that
U S S Clueless: lol
skillxiii: lol
U S S Clueless: with drama in between...but I want someone more radical than Jakes
U S S Clueless: someone like Rod Parsley
skillxiii: LOL
skillxiii: LOL
skillxiii: Rod Parlsey is a good actor
U S S Clueless: someone who is known for being outspoken against gays, abortion & stem cell research
skillxiii: I almost believe ALL the time
skillxiii: he always gets me!
U S S Clueless: lol@almost believe
skillxiii: lol
skillxiii: i was watching him do this infomercial for a Bible study tape..
U S S Clueless: and just so happens my over-the-top friend (in real life) attends his church and his very faithful to him
skillxiii: and it was with that health nut guy who says that you'll die from pork
U S S Clueless: He sent me a letter asking me for money and if I give money, he'll put my name on a brick
U S S Clueless: lol
skillxiii: LOL
skillxiii: LOL
skillxiii: LOL
skillxiii: and if you don't you get HIT with the brick
U S S Clueless: right
U S S Clueless: lol
Heck Yea!
U S S Clueless: Vote for Predro
bigblackfist: What?
U S S Clueless: Pedro offers you his protection
bigblackfist: da hell? Who's Pedro
U S S Clueless: Last week Japanese scientist placed explosive detonators at the bottom of Lake Loch Ness to blow Nessy out of the water...
bigblackfist: What the problem is woman?
U S S Clueless: Pedro is Napoleon's friend. I'm quoting Napoleon Dynamite. You should see it.
bigblackfist: I don't want to watch that.
U S S Clueless: WHY! It's good
bigblackfist: Is it really good?
U S S Clueless: Heck Yea! It's like the coolest movie ever!
bigblackfist: heck yea?
U S S Clueless: lol
U S S Clueless: It's really funny
bigblackfist: I'll take your word
bigblackfist: what are you gon do today?
U S S Clueless: Whatever I feel like doing! Ugh!
bigblackfist: you don't have to be rude. You gotta work?
U S S Clueless: no...i'm practicing to become a cage fighter
bigblackfist: Napoleon Dynamite said that too right?
U S S Clueless: No napoleon's brother Kip said it
bigblackfist: bye girl
U S S Clueless: NO DON'T LEAVE ME!
Auto response from bigblackfist: Back Up Off Me!
U S S Clueless: Friggin idiot! UGH!
Is That a Dog?
kgarris04: Your dog needs help
U S S Clueless: I don't have a dog
kgarris04: that thing on the left is trying to escape, but it keeps falling.
U S S Clueless: My buddy icon?
kgarris04: Yea that thing
U S S Clueless: That's not a dog. It's a facetious panda.
kgarris04: I'm in the 10th grade. I don't know what facetious means.
U S S Clueless: It's like calling someone awnry
kgarris04: It looks like a dog.
U S S Clueless: You have bad eyes
Posted by Timi at 5:30 PM
November 8, 2004
Blah Blah Blah
I don't know what's worse. Watching my favorite football team get smashed by the Pittsburgh Steelers or being called a "closet" Republican. I can recover from being called a republican, but watching the Eagles lose? Man...that hurts.
Football Disappoints. God never does.
I watched a portion of the Eagles game prior to going into the office. I left when the score was 21-3. It was rather depressing to watch. I can accept defeat when I know that my team played it's heart out, but my team just layed down & let their opponent get an easy win. I should've gone to church instead of watching the game.
I may be conservative, but I'm no Republican
I was called a "closet" Republican. A co-worker told me that I "could make a rational case for being a black republican". I took offense to that. The co-worker said that I've been defending Bush alot in the past year & my non-chalant attitude about the election results prove that deep down I'm a Bush supporter. WHAT? I had to laugh at that one myself.
He started bringing up issues that puts me "likeness" with the President. He was naming my republican friends. He brought up the time in which I defended the president during 9/11. He mentioned how I told some chicks to go back to Jamaica because they insulted Bush. I thought it was pretty funny. I had a rebuttle for all of accusations. I was entertained by his logic, that I forgot that he had offended me with his initial statement.
I explained that I'm Democrat. I'm not extremely liberal, although a case can be argued that I am. I'm not extremely conservative, I do have my moments of brash conservatism. I'm way too liberal for Seminary (just ask my friend at Dallas Theological Seminary). I'll vote non-partisan in a minute. Yes, I did vote for a few Republicans on Election Day. Should I be ashamed? No. Does that constitute me to be a Republican? No. I just happen to have a broad view on issues. Morality wasn't the focal point of my thinking on November 2. I don't fault the "moral majority" for voting how they voted. But I did have a few questions for him. Questions like...what kind of morality is there in going to war & killing thousands without a just cause? What kind of morality is there in forsaking the poor? I have a hard time believing that Christ himself would've overlooked issues of poverty, health care & unjust wars. After all, Sodom & Gommora wasn't destroyed solely BECAUSE of homosexuality. It was done away with because of the arrogance of the people, the rampant immorality and THEY DID NOT EXTEND THEIR HANDS TO HELP THE POOR.
Ezekiel 16
49 " 'Now this was the sin of your sister Sodom: She and her daughters were arrogant, overfed and unconcerned; they did not help the poor and needy. 50 They were haughty and did detestable things before me. Therefore I did away with them as you have seen.
America Beware
Posted by Timi at 1:05 PM
November 6, 2004
Bullet
Mat Kearney is alright with me. I'm still learning much about him, but I like this guy. I was introduced to Mat Kearney just a little over a year ago. I was living in DC at the time & my roommate from Multnomah Bible College (in Oregon) introduced me to Mat's music. One day while chillin in the apartment, I walked past my roommate's bedroom. I heard her listening to what sounded like hip hop music. I was shocked. I turned back towards the bedroom & asked about the music. In a very Carol Burnettesque voice, she said, "Oh my word. You never heard of him? His name is Mat Kearney. He raps."
I was a bit intrigued by the music, but I was also curious about the artist. "Is he black?", I asked. My roommate informed me that he was white. I wanted to see if his entire album sounded as good as the track that I was hearing, so I asked to borrow the CD. She let me use the CD. I was unable to burn a copy because we did not possess a CD Burner in the office. I thought the CD was great.
My introduction to Mat Kearney's CD was in July 2003. As to why the CD just went commercial in October 2004, I'll never know. I enjoy it though. I purchased it last week, and it's gotten mass play in my CD player. I'd liken Mat Kearney to a combination of Everlast, Coldplay & Sonny, of P.O.D. You be the judge. I've decided to add Bullet, Kearney's CD, to my radio blog. Perhaps you'll listen & like what you hear. My favorite tracks on the album are Girl America, Poor Boy, Won't Back Down & Renaissance.
Below is an album listing, along with MY brief opinion descripion of each. To hear the songs, just click on the song title & the radio.blog should pop up
I'm past the point of returning/ For you I'm ruined and broken/ There is no way of me turning/ You've got my heart in the open
I don't recall this song when I first heard the CD a little beyond a year ago. This is my friend Nate's favorite song. At first, I wasn't moved by this song. After a few listens, it began to grow on me. I kinda like it now.
My girl america, stop cant you see/ It's not the circumstances that determine who you're gonna be/ But how you deal with these problems and pains that come your way/ It's for you that I pray with hope for a brighter day/ So I say, your deliverance is coming
This song is perhaps one of the DEEPEST songs that I've ever heard. It was this song that hipped me to Matt Kearney while living in DC. It's my favorite song on the album. I used this song when I spoke a youth summit at my church a while ago. It's a meaningful & positive song.
I thought this song was about becoming a Martyr for Christ. Then after listening to it, I began to think it was about being loyal to a close friend. I can't decifer a meaning. I just know that I really like the song
This song reminds of Coldplay's "The Scientist". In The Middle (track wise) sounds almost exactly like The Scientist. The singing in the song draws similarities to Coldplay as well. The rapping & song material are the only things that differentiate the two. I like The Scientist, but the jury is still out on In The Middle
You're the only one who stuck it out last night/ The only other one who caught the other line/ You're the only when this world collides/ The one that I can't deny
A song about the undeniable reverence of G-O-D. I think it's cool.
I can be the wall when you fall down/ Find me on the rocks when you break down/ I heard it in the song when you call out/ But I got to say now it's got to change
For the life of me, I can't understand why I like this song, but it's like my 3rd favorite song on the album. I guess I'll keep listening to figure out why I like it so much.
Call me anything but lonely/ Throw a stone, disown me/ Let 'em know I'll never ever be the same
Another Coldplayesque song. I imagine a guy on the corner playing a guitar when I hear this song.
'Cause wide is the path pulling astray/ Narrow is truth in these days/ But all the while I hear a still small voice say/ You climbed the cliffs, rocked the desert on your very own/ Swam the seas, sang the songs with the sweetest tones/ The beaches you've combed, moons you've roamed, the love you've shown/ But all the while a voice calls you home
I love this song. This is another deep & powerful song on the album. I was poor, but God's love set me free. Sweet words. This is a song that goes on repeat for a minute.
I don't like this song very much. I usually skip it when I listen to the album.
I hear a voice crying out from the bellie of their mamas/ Hold on for today, Don't worry about tomorrow/ Though the rains of today seem to fall with sorrow/ Let me be and we'll see this life for tomorrow
Everlast came to mind when I first heard Tomorrow. I want to sing What It's Like when I hear Tomorrow. I also think of Will You, by P.O.D, when I listen to this track. This is another moving song on the album.
These days a little bit longer than the last/ And all of your ways, a little bit stonger than the past/ And your light, found my bottle in the night/ Kept me in this fight, gave me second life...And I won't back down/ Doesn't matter what comes crashing down/ I'm still gonna stand my solid ground
This song puts me to sleep some nights. It sounds a bit depressing, but it's rather soothing & encouraging. Hey...I like it.
Bullet is a decent first album for Mat Kearney. I think he has a promising future. I look forward to the work that he'll put forth in the future. I tip my hat to him.
Posted by Timi at 12:43 AM
November 3, 2004
Proud American
May I have my Florida Evans moment right now? I am entitled to that right? Right. So here it is...
DAMN DAMN DAMN!
Now that I've gotten that out of my system, I just want to say, YOU ARE A GRACIOUS MAN MR. KERRY. I SOLUTE YOU.
At this moment, I can honestly say that I am a proud American. I may be scorned, sick, sad (or any other negative emotion you think of), but I am a proud Black American Woman nonetheless. I write that with a quesy feeling at the bottom of my stomach. But that's ok.
I've been reading other people's thoughts about the election results. The consensus seems to be anger. There is one Republican who is gloating, and I ain't mad at her. You go Genie! LOL. Because had Kerry won, I would've done the SAME thing. But anyways...on with my post.
I'm not angry (anymore). I'm just disappointed. I keep thinking about the "what ifs". I'm not upset with the people who voted for Bush either because they voted with a sense of urgency that many Americans just did not have. Now in saying that, I must say that I'm ticked off with the negros and other spastic Americans who did not exercise their right to vote at all. ESPECIALLY THE YOUNG PEOPLE. I knew this would happen. I said it would happen. To quote myself (and yes Im gloating):
Someone has to be the killjoy, so I've decided that I'll take on that role. I'm sick of vote or die campaigns. I'm sick of them because I really do not believe that they will serve the purpose intended. There's one thing to get a bunch of knuckeheads registered to vote. It's another thing to get these kids out to actually vote. This is the fallacy of Vote or Die (or any other campaign geared toward the youth generation). I commend the efforts of the people running these campaigns to encourage young people (especially young black people) to register to vote, but what's going to happen on election day? Are their going to be buses waiting in the hood to take these young folks to the polls? You've seen the tragedies happening in the hood. You've seen David Banner show you his hood & home with no running water on MTV. You've heard the young people talk about how tough their life is. What are you going to do about that?
I believe the answer in simple. Absolutely nothing. The same complacency that existed prior to the voter registration is going to be present on election day. Maybe I'll be proven wrong. Maybe I won't. One thing remains true. That is, the real issue is not in getting these kids to register to vote (although that is VERY important), the real creme de la creme is getting these kids to the polls so that they can vote. Until then, I'm calling the bluff.
I couldn't be more disgusted by my own words. Why couldn't I have been proven wrong? What if...
I said I would be in a deep funk if Bush won, but I think I'll get over this in about a week. I'll be ok. I just need to be kept away from a certain negro named Jason Johnson, who lives in Ohio, who said that he prayed to God and he chose not to vote. Now I'm not knocking his decision to pray about the elections. I prayed about it myself. I just question whether or not God really told him not to vote. You see...Jason is on my hit list right now. And knowing that the separation of votes between Kerry & Bush was like 130,000 in Ohio, makes me incredibly sick with Mr. Johnson and those like him.
Back to the gist of this email...I am a black woman who is proud to call herself an American right now. I voted. I'm not happy with the results, but I know that I made my ancestors proud and that's all that matters to me right now.
I also prayed that God's will be done in this election, so it is what it is. To quote my pal Micheal Paul,
I'm reading the Old Testament right now and it seems to me that God puts all rulers and people of authority in there place. Good or bad. For His purpose.
Amen to that Brother.
I commend John Kerry for conceding. Why delay the inevitable? It would've been a mess had he not done so, and I was not looking forward to the drama. He did a good thing. The divisions must end.
So...in conceding defeat...CONGRATULATIONS MR. BUSH. YOU RAN A WORTHY CAMPAIGN & IT PAID IT OFF. I MAY NOT LIKE THE FACT THAT YOU'VE WON, BUT I RESPECT YOU NONETHELESS. MAY GOD BLESS YOU IN YOUR EFFORTS TO RE-UNITE A DIVIDED COUNTRY.
We're going to be alright. Peace out folks.
Posted by Timi at 10:20 PM
November 2, 2004
Wake Up!
Posted by Timi at 8:14 AM