USS Clueless: Earth to Timi

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I spent my afternoon attending group sessions. I was bored out of my mind and I really didn't want to be there. The moderator sensed my lack of interest and kept calling me out for participation. That made me want to be there even less, but I had to be there. You see, I kind of had a temper tantrum experienced a lapse in composure at work last week. But, I walked away from an otherwise "risky" situation.

Because I showed, "incredible restraint & self-control" in walking away from a very "tense & emotional debacle", I was given a compromise. If I agreed to attend anger managment sessions sensitivity training, then the issue would be de-fused. I didn't think the situation merited such action, but I agreed to it. I was given this compromise largely in part because of a situation that occurred about a month ago with two other employees.

Without getting into too much detail, I had a situation in which I felt as if I'd been wronged & disrespected. I decided to be mature about the situation and talk to the person that wronged me. That person wasn't very receptive. Not only was that person not willing to talk, but she totally disrespected me. I could've followed suit, and acted totally out of character, but I walked away. I walked into our office, and I began to vent a little bit. Ok Ok...I began to vent alot. It was loud, and it was obvious that I was not very happy. I had to get that which upset off of my chest. A little venting never hurt anyone. That's better than straight two-piecing somebody.

I'm a professional. I'm not going to fight you in the office at all. It's not worth risking my job nor is it worth a poor recommendation. I also try to be a good Christian. Sometimes that "Love thy neighbor" clause flies out the windown when I'm upset. I'm human. So may in light of all of this, maybe I'll benefit from these sessions. Perhaps, I'll learn to live by one my grandmother's favorite scriptures in James 1:19-20. That reads:

...Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires

Yea...umm...I think I need to recite that one on a daily basis. You know...for my sanity's sake.