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April 30, 2005
I Knew It!
I knew it all along. I called this one last week. I knew that the claims of the abduction of Jennifer Wilbanks would prove to be bogus. I had a feeling that it wasn't true. It turns out that I was right! This check got a case cold feet and went ghost.
My cousin & I were talking about the case on Thursday. I said, "Nobody kidnapped her. She left on her own because she didn't want to be married." My cousin thought I was a bit insensitive for saying that. Insensitive my BE-HIND! I knew it wasn't true. I was listening to the facts surrounding her disappearance, and I thought to myself, "Yea right!".
She wasted everybody's time. I hope that she's put in prison for this. Ok...maybe not prison, but charges should be pressed against her for the time that Police & search teams spent looking for her. I'm tired of these privileged chicks making up stories because life doesnt appeal to them at the moment. Remember the white chick in Wisconsin who made up a story about her kidnap? This is insanity. Her parents were offering a $100,000 reward for her too! That's just pure selfishness on her part. She needs help. Seriously.
If things were that bad, then she just should've told her fiance that she didn't want to get married. That would've saved him alot of legal fees & drama. But nooooooooo...That was too hard for her. Her fiance had to take a lie detector test & had she not shown up, he would've taken a serious grilling from the American public thanks to Scott Peterson. Scott Peterson has made life hard for every middle aged white man who's wife or girlfriend shows up missing.
I don't know...something tells me that her fiance knew she wasn't happy & was covering the story up too. This whole ordeal seems a bit shady to me. I'm sure some weird stories will be popping up about the couple soon enough.
I pray that her parents & family will be able to forgive her for this nonsense. She needs Jesus. Seriously...
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April 25, 2005
Just Like Music
I love the way that music speaks to our souls. There is a song for just about any emotion that we as humans are capable of feeling. I've experienced about 30 different emotions since I've been sick, and I've listened to about 3,000 songs to sooth me. Music is great. My friend Jay made me a mixed CD with a bunch of cool songs on it. I've been listening to that alot.
I am creating the soundtrack of my life and I've hit a snag. I'm stuck in my teenage years trying to think of a short list of songs to describe it. I'm not having a problem thinking of music to use...Im just have an issue trying to use which ones best summarize those turbulant years in my life. There are so many.
Trying to fit this soundtrack into an 18 song radio.blog is even more difficult. It's a tedious project, but I have nothing but time. I need something to do to keep me from being completely bored and depressed. If I didn't have music to listen to, I'd go nuts.
Speaking of music...
I can't wait until 'The Thesis' drops. It's gonna be hot!
Click here to check out a few of the tracks that will be on the upcoming album.
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April 19, 2005
No Name Post #3
The new Pope looks like Grandpa from the Munster's. A "Holy Father" is supposed to look...well...not scary. And Pope Benedict Arnold VXWIIITUV looks...well scary. That was just a random thought...
I'm currently on medical leave from work. Which isn't a total bust because I still get paid in full. I haven't been doing much, but sleeping, watching tv & mastering Mah Jong (I broke down & bought the full version). I was able to get out of the house today. The weather was way too beautiful and I had to break out of the house. I needed some fresh air.
I went to Battery Park with a friend & sat by the Riverfront to chat. The breeze from the ocean was almost intoxicating. Afterwards, we walked around Old New castle & visited some of the shops. I couldn't do too much walking because it's a bit painful to walk & I still get short-winded.
I had more tests run on me. I had to have an Abdominal & Pelvic Ultrasound. The results from both ultrasounds revealed more issues. There is something called a hemangioma on my liver. It's a small tumor. My doctor told me that they are congenital, so I was most likely born with the issue & it just surfaced. My doctor believes that my abdominal pain may be caused by both the cyst on my ovary & the hemangioma, so I'm being monitored pretty closely. I have to take it easy a bit.
My blood count has gone from 4.5 to 10 thanks to the blood transfusion, a crap load of iron pills & delicious crispy vegetable (*rolls eyes*). I had not had a Pepsi in 3 weeks, so I drinking one today. It made me sick. I haven't been able to take down carbonated beverages as of late. LIPTON Diet Green Tea with Citrus is my best friend now that I'm unable to drink Pepsi. My brother accidently picked up the tea while shopping for regular iced tea. He gave it to me & I fell in love. It tastes just like the regular green tea with citrus.
Tomorrow is going to be another lovely day. I'm going to ride to Jersey. I have to take my car back to the dealership. My breaks are making a weird noise. And since the car is still under warranty, I can take it back to the dealership and have it fixed for F-R-E-E. Free is my kinda language. The Service Center at the dealership will likely give me a loaner car, until my car is fixed. The last time I had a problem with the car, they lent me a 2004 Jeep Grand Cherokee. Maybe they'll lend me the 2006 Grand Cherokee this time. lol.
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April 15, 2005
Idle Time
I don't even watch this show, but I decided to do this quiz because house arrest bed rest is boring the daylights out of me....
You are MayaA round the way girl, you put the 'friend' in girlfriend. You can always be counted on to give it to 'em straight, no chaser. When a friend comes to you with a problem you have no qualms giving your opinion on her personal affairs, and you tend to get pissed if she doesn't take your advice. You're a strong woman, but you can come across as hard and cynical. Put a little more 'fabulous' with your ghetto, and people will respect you more.
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April 12, 2005
Health Issues
I've been sick for the past week & a half or so. I'm not feeling so hot. My doc has placed me on bed rest (again) & medical leave from work for the next week.
I returned to the hospital on Sunday with really terrible pain in my stomach & abdomen. I had trouble breathing too. I knew it wasn't an asthma attack. It didn't feel like one. I couldn't walk straight or anything. When I sat, I couldn't breath, so I had to lean against a wall. My stomach had swelled to the point in which it looked as if I were a few months pregnant. Several tests were run on me, and it was determined that my spleen had enlarged. I was given a blood test, and the results weren't so great. In fact, they were not normal at all. My red blood cells were very low. My blood count was less than half the count of a normal persons. A normal person's blood count is 14. My count was at 4.5 meaning that I am severely anemic. So, I had to have a blood transfusion.
I was a bit weary about having the blood transfusion because I wanted to be certain that the blood had been tested for HIV, Hepatitis and other diseases. I was assured that it had been. I really had no choice but to accept the blood or my condition probably would've worsened. My doctor decided to do a stomach & abdominal CT Scan on me. I had to drink this stuff. It tasted like a combination of chalk, rolaids & orange drink. It took me an hour to finish that stuff.
When I finished it, I was taken for the CT Scan. After that was done, I had to finish receiving the blood. At about 11pm Sunday evening, I was officially admitted into the hospital. The CT Scan revealed a cyst on my ovary & it was bleeding internally causing me to lose blood. I was given an emergency pelvic exam. Oh my God, men are so lucky that they don't have to get this done. An emergency pelvic isn't like a normal pelvic exam (which sucks majorly). It is quit painful, and the pain is intensified only by the fact that I've never had sex before. To have a doctor roaming around inside of parts that my future husband hasn't even seen yet is just as terrible.
I don't think that there is anything that can prepare you for a pelvic exam. My doctor told me to breath, but by the time I took in a breath, she was already inside me. I will admit that after the initial "Jesus!"...I let out a few non-choice words like "damn it!", "s***!"...then the tears. It was the pain talking. Tests were run on the sample taken. They were inconclusive, so I have to go back to the doc for another pelvic exam tomorrow. That sucks so bad. I was discharged from the hospital last night. I'm still in pain though.
What frightens me most is that my mother had these type of problems as well. Her problems didn't begin until after she had my younger brother. She would develop tumors & cysts on her ovaries, and eventually she had to had a hystorectomy. I pray that everything goes well for me. I pray that my issues will take me as far as a hystorectomy. I'm too young to have these problems. I haven't even been married and had children yet.
My first question to the doc after I was warned about the cyst was, "Will I be able to have children?" My doctor answered, "I don't see why wouldn't be able to." That made me feel a little better. I just pray that all works out well for me. I could use your prayers as well.
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April 5, 2005
Agony
What does an asthma attack feel like?
It feels like Big Boy & Bruce Bruce are having a head-to-head dance contest on my chest. Pure agony. Not a great feeling at all. I think Bruce Bruce is doing the A-Town Stomp. God help my poor lungs.
[Edit- 4/6/2005 9:12pm] I went to the hospital last night with symptoms of an asthma attack. I couldn't breath and that's a terrible feeling. I arrived to the ER at 7pm and I didn't leave until 6am this morning. I think I got tested for everything imaginable. At about 5am, the doc comes into my room to tell me that my ct scan looks fine, but my chest x-ray was a bit of a concern. I had some swelling in my chest making it difficult to breath. Each time I breathed in, I felt a sharp pain go through my chest and my shoulders. I was diagnosed with a condition called Pleurisy. Pleurisy is the swelling of the tissue or something in between the lungs & the ribs. I'm on bed rest for the next 3 days. I feel like CRAP.
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April 4, 2005
Seguin Is For Suckers
See. I was going to let the little tiff between Adam & I die peacefully, BUT he has chosen to be a complete jerk and call me out on his site. Adam I used to like you until you started running your mouth like a big S-I-S-S-Y. YOU started the argument about Will Smith & Martin Lawrence. I said that I thought Martin was gullier than Will. AND HE IS. In a street fight, Martin would kick the crap out of Will. Better yet, Will wouldn't fight because he'd turn punk & hide behind his chick. But that's irrelevant. This is personal now.
You're so sensitive. I'm gonna start callin you chi chi man.
Ok...That too is cruel. You aren't chi chi. But I won't delete it. I'll have integrity and just apologize.
You've misinterpreted EVERYTHING I said. I never teased you for being a virgin (Though by reading your site I can tell why you are). Why would I? I'm a virgin too silly. Here a snippet of the conversation:
SkillxIII: After we made out, I whispered a prayer in her ear. It freaked her out.
U S S Clueless: You said a prayer for her AFTER you guys sinned? Now that's a trip...lol
SkillxIII: I prayed for us. I'm like Hitch, "I pictured that happening different in my head."
U S S Clueless: That is funny. It's bad enough that she was probably convicted over it and then you pray? That makes it worse. It would've freak me out too. lol
SkillxIII: What can I say? I'm just a good old Christian boy. I don't know any better.
SkillxIII: I think she felt like she corrupted a little virgin boy.
U S S Clueless: You ARE a virgin. I almost forgot. lol
SkillxIII: You think my virginity is a joke?
U S S Clueless: No. I'm just saying that I almost forgot that you were a part of the movement. lol
SkillxIII: Oh. Cuz I was gonna say!
U S S Clueless: You're silly. You know it is uncommon in these days for a man your age to be a virgin.
SkillxIII: WHAT ARE YOU SAYIN T.
U S S Clueless: I'm just saying that by "the worlds" standards its not common.
SkillxIII: It's not common by YOUR standards either huh?
U S S Clueless: That's not what I'm saying Adam. I'm actually proud that you've taken a stand for what's right.
SkillxIII: But do you think I'm manly?
U S S Clueless: About as much man as A.C. Green. lol
SkillxIII: You suck!
U S S Clueless: Hey! AC Green was a virgin until he was like 40. That's a man to me. I can just imagine the kind of lust & temptation he was battling.
SkillxIII: You laughed when you said it.
U S S Clueless: You're really sensitive. I'm gonna buy you a mood ring.
You know Adam (Puddlegum, Emperor of the Lost Islands...whatever you're calling yourself now) I thought you were cool. I thought that us being mature Christians would afford us the opportunity to be honest & funny...even in humor. I didn't think you'd trip over something so trivial. Man up. You have officially gained LOSER status. I'd rather live in Delaware than in Seguin, TX with a bunch of ducks, chickens & other wildlife!
Oh yea...I can tell that grammar wasn't required of your major Mr. Movie Man. You spelled DELAWARE wrong TWICE!!
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April 2, 2005
Rain Rain Go Away...
It's a rainy Saturday, and I'm just chillin inside. I plan to cook dinner, light some candles, read a book and relax. First, I have to shake off this headache that I've had since morning. It feels as if someone is grabbing the left side of my head and shaking the right. It's the worst feeling ever. My neck & my shoulders hurt too, so that sucks completely.
My bestfriend called me earlier to analyze my dream from yesterday morning. She's a good dream interpretor, but even her mind was boggled as she tried to decipher a meaning. She says, "Maybe you're gonna die & be brought back to life." ERRRRRRRRRRRN!...WRONG ANSWER!
She then says, "Well maybe Terri is just using you to tell the world that she made it to the other side. That would explain the scripture. You knows its sad that to be absent from the body is to present with the Lord." I told her that explaination was much better, but I doubt it thats what it meant. I've just come to the conclusion that it's just one of those odd kind of dreams that a person has. Maybe the meaning will manifest itself one day. As of now, I have no clue & Im gonna leave it alone. lol.
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April 1, 2005
Sike!
A friend created this image after yahoo's goof earlier in reporting the Pope dead. I'm not trying to be insensitive, but I thought it was quite humorous. It just takes the edge off all of the sadness that has been reported in the media today.
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She's Gone
I went to bed last night feeling heavy hearted about the whole Terri Schiavo case. I don't know why I began to feel that way considering that I haven't shown an ounce of emotion about the case. I felt bad that her last days were filled with drama & confusion courtesy of her family and a bunch of bonehead politicians. I actually breathed a sigh of relief when she passed because now perhaps the woman can have peace. All the fighting & stuff over her was ridiculous.
I dreamed about Terri last night (rather this morning). It was the oddest dream that I've ever had (aside from the talking dogs dream).
I dreamt that my phone at approximately 6am this morning. It was Terri Schiavo. She said, "Hey T. It's me Terri...Terri Schiavo. Just thought I'd call to check up on you." I was speechless on the other end of the line. I don't know her, but she knew me. That bugged me out.
Then I thought it was a hoax, so I said, "Yea right Terri died the other day."
She responded, "I'm Terri. I'm alive & I have a message for you." I yawned and said, "Go ahead." She said, "You are a good listener take heed to my words. 'If any man be in Christ, he is a new creature. Old things are passed away & all things become new.' You got that?"
I realized that she quoted 2 Corinthians 5. I responded with, "I guess." She said, "Great. Though I am dead, yet will I live." She quoted John 11:25. I said, "What are you 13th Apostle? What's with the New Testament proverbs?"
Terri responded with, "I'm Alive! I'm free. Turn on the news." Then she hung up. I layed there in bed believing that I'd just been bamboozled. I thought that I'd been the victim of some silly April Fool's joke. I opened my phone's web browser to CNN news. The headline read, "BREAKING NEWS: Terri Schiavo Is Alive!"
I jumped up and turned on to CNN. There was Terri Schiavo on the screen smiling. I said, "What the??" The CNN news anchor asked Terri if she had any words for the millions of people now awakening and seeing her on their televisions.
She let out evil laughter and said, "April Fools...I'M BACK BITCHES!"
I screamed, "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO"
Then I woke up. I wouldn't even begin to know how to piece that one together. This dream is toying with my mental functions. I aint been back to sleep since 7am. It's bad enough that I didn't go to sleep until 5am (special thanks to an addicting game called Mah Jong!). I feel the lag setting in right about now...
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