USS Clueless: Earth to Timi

I had a lovely time in Pittsburgh...as always. We hung out & talked. I am so proud of my friend. I admire her a great deal. I got emotional at her graduation party. I tried to stop myself from crying when I got up to speak, but I couldn't. She's been like a sister & more to me. She & I tell each other EVERYTHING. I haven't withheld anything from her. I can trust her not to judge me. If we were twins, she'd be the good one. She truly represents whats good & decent in this world. I wouldn't trade her for anything.

I rode along to Pittsburgh with another one of my friends & her brother. It's interesting that she brought her brother along because we all know that her bro likes my bestfriend. At one point, I think my bestfriend liked him as well, but she'd never admit it. It was so cute because he was teasing her & playing around with her like he used to in college. He kept taking pictures of her with his phone. SB & I were teasing Shell about it. She tried not to blush, but she was blushing hard. lol. As we were heading back to DE, I grabbed his phone & saw that he made one of Shell's picture his screensaver. I just giggled to myself & put his phone away.

We made a stop in Marlboro, MD to crash attend a graduation party. I didn't want to go. I actually sat in the car convinced that I would leave. Then I realized that I had no idea of my location nor was I driving. lol. I went inside of the party. Sat there for an awkward hour & then left. After we left the party, we made a stop in Essex, MD and headed back to DE. I enjoyed the ride.

We're planning a road trip at the end of Summer. Most likely, we'll be heading to New Orleans. I'm already excited about that. My friend SB wants to travel back to VA so that we can hook up with my friend BC again. BC is so cool. That's my Detroit roadie. She & I were the only negros during a summer stint & we were close like Bethelem & Nazareth. *sings* It's TA in the place with BC and I got what it takes to rock the mic right, yeahhh...

Ok that was very random. That's just the first thing that came to mind.

Speaking of random...

Have you ever found God in a movie that was totally Godless? Lately, I've been watching movies & finding redemptive value in them. It's totally bugged. I still have to write about how God spoke to me while viewing Spike Lee's "She Hate Me". That one is a trip...definitely worthy of it's own entry. But anyway...I was watching "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" and I was blown away. Can you imagine voluntarily agreeing to lose your memory? What if you then decide, at the last minute, that you want to save various memories just to remember old times? It sounds tacky (and really it is), but as I watched the movie I began to think. This is how we as humans are.

We want to forget various things in our lives, but at the same time we really don't want to. We just want to erase the pain & the hurt that we felt in those memories. How many times have we as women cried out, "GOD I WISH THAT I HAVE NEVER MET HIM!!!" In reality, we don't wish that we'd never met him. We just just wish that we hadn't fallen for him remarkable charm, or slept with, or said those 3 words..."I love you". Deep down he may have actually been a good guy. For two year he may have been Prince Charming, but we don't remember the two years. We remember the last 2 hours of pain he inflicted during the breakup and THAT hurts the most. That alone clouds all the good memories.

We want to forget, but it's impossible to forget. We as humans think that we can rid ourselves of bad memories with one miraculous touch of a button. I'll admit that I want to do that all the time. In life there is no "Easy" button as one commercial would suggest. I think that God forces us to deal with our issues. He wants us to trust that He IS able to heal us when we are hurting. I suspect that when we allow God to help us as we go through, it'll make forgetting alot easier.

I'm reminded of a scripture in The Book of Isaiah that reads something like (paraphase), "I am God. Remember Me...Forgot all of that old crap because I am about to bring you out. I am about to do a new thing in your life and it's going to blow your mind. I'll create rivers in your desert." Dude...that's serious. Don't remember the old, but remember whats about to come. That's the best. God is the bomb.

So in short...if you haven't seen "Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind", then you need to go see it.

On A Side Note...

I've added The Thesis to my Radio Blog on the right. I'm still formulating my review. Each time I listen to the album, my thought patterns are thrown off...so give me a little more time....ok Adam?