The first step in healing is admitting that you have a problem.

I have a John Edwards supporters since forever. At the onset of all this presidential talk, I pegged that John Edwards would be the presumptive nominee. I was wrong. Since Mr. Edwards has abandoned the race, I have been enthralled with Senator Barack Obama. Why? I'll support anyone before I'll ever cast a vote for Hillary Clinton. I'm almost 29 years old and I want change. Hillary Clinton is not change my friends.

Anyway...I first supported Senator Obama as a means of shunning the choice of Senator Clinton. I've begun to believe in this man's message. He gives me....HOPE! I believe that he can be a catalyst for change. I believe that America can do better under his leadership. YES WE CAN!

I lost my Digital Camera on the way to Rodney Square! I think somebody silent jacked me. I don't know what happened to my damn camera, but I am pissed about losing it. I was able to get some pretty decent shots from my cousin's cell phone. I got great audio from my phone as well. I've decided to share....

Here's a clip of the last 1 & a 1/2 of Obama's speech. It's a bit fuzzy because my phone records in qcp and I converted it to Wav. It's still listenable ...for lack of a better word.

Here are the photos courtesy of my cousin's cell phone. I AM SO PISSED ABOUT LOSING MY CAMERA! And it was brand new too...I'm not having any luck with gadgets these days

For 99 friggin cent, I could get my iPod back to new again. The listing read that the instructions for replacing the iPod battery was simply. Just use the tools provided remove the cover 1,2,3...BINGO! Battery replaced. No tech needed. No drama.

Yea right!!! I followed the damn instructions, and this is the end damn result

$300...piece of shit...

Yea Yea...now I know. You get what you pay for...

Ruby Dee won a Screen Actors Guild award for Best Supporting Actress. This makes me smile. Recognition by mainstream Hollywood is LONG overdue for Ms. Ruby Dee. She was wonderful in "American Gangster"...very well deserving of all award nominations received.

I'd love to see her take home the Oscar. That would cap off a graceful and illustrious career.

Usually, I'd laugh something like that off. I couldn't do that this time. It offended me a bit. I know that my brother's intentions weren't to upset me, but I was a bit unnerved by the text.

Why? Well...I'm not married. I don't plan on having children until I have a husband.

I'm single. Though I wouldn't mind a child around to keep to me company, I'm not ready to have a child just yet. I don't want to raise a child alone.

I want to buck what seems to be a trend of single motherhood. I'm not willing to compromise everything I believe just to combat my loneliness. I mean babies are cute and all, but you still have to feed, change and waste your money on them. I'm too selfish for that. You can't send your child home, if he gets on your nerves. If I get lonely, I'll call a friend.

My mother asks me questions about children too. She says, "When are you going to make me a grandmother?" My mother is a faithful church lady. Geez...One would think that my mother would be more interested in getting me married than giving me a baby.

In due time I suppose. Until then, I'll keep holding out for a husband. I'm single. I'm 28. I'm still a virgin. I'm a walking time-bomb. God be with me.

The entertainment scene is live...especially on weekends considering there's a row on bars and nights spots on Del. Ave. There is always an abundance of people out expecting a time. For the most part, everyone has a good time. Of course there's drama, but it's never a big concern.

And that's why I'm writing this post. The drama that happens is never a big concern. In like likelihood, you'll never about a fight on Del. Ave in The News Journal. You'll never see a Channel 6 news van stationed outside of Catherine Rooney's interviewing witnesses to the drama that sometimes takes place. This is the "good 'hood" party scene. Minimal police and few arrests.

I've seen a few fights break out. The fights are usually over few minutes after they begins. Just a bunch of a drunk white guys trying to show each other who's the Alpha Male in the bunch. The worst fight I saw involved a bottle being smashed over someone's head. Again the fight was over after the bottle smash. No bullets. No police.

No police? Of course not, this in Trolley Square...not North Philly.

Last night, as I circled the square to find a parking spot, I notice a fight that's begun in front of a restaurant. It looked pretty serious. What's interesting is that there was ONE police officer to maintain order. ONE damn police officer for a big fight. Had this involved a bunch of negros, the bomb squad, ATF, WPD, DE State Troopers and every other law enforcement agency would've been on scene. Somebody's black tail would've been clubbed. Somebody would've gone to jail and all entertainment would've been shut down.

One police officer.

Unbelievable. Then again maybe not as unbelievable as it seems. Very seldom does anyone leave here harmed. White people don't shoot each other after they fight...

The Iowa Caucus has passed with a resounding BOOM.

History has come upon us. Barack Obama upstaged everyone. Could it be that America will elect a black man as President? I'm excited for Mr. Obama, but I'm not getting my hopes up. I really really really really like the brotha, but intuition is telling me that his black tail will be left behind in November.

I could be wrong. As I said on Bro. Field's site, if Obama is elected President of THESE United States of America then I promise to never ever ever ever EVER talk ish about this country again. Cross my heart and hope to die...stick a needle in my eye...

My iPod battery is broke. No sad music to listen to...

I can hear my neighbor having sex. I will never ever ever live on the 2nd floor again. I need ear plugs, but then I wouldn't hear my alarm...

Bummer...

Why? Because I never keep them. It's that simple. This year I've dedicated myself to commitment. When I commit to something, I tend to stick with it until it's done.

So...in 2008 and here on out, I commit myself to a better lifestyle. I commit myself change. I commit myself to LIFE. I commit myself to all that will help me to a better person.

I'm excited. I've started well already. I ate a salad for breakfast. Ok...I didn't wake up until 12pm...so we can call it lunch. lol.

May this year be a wonderful one for you and you family.

Many Blessings!

This is the perfect time to resurrect my blog. I doubt if anyone still checks this site out. It's lied dormant forever. I'd decided that I'd stop making promises to write and just put this chapter of my life to rest. I didn't feel that I needed to do it anymore.

Writing has always been therapeutic to me. Perhaps I should try again? We'll see how this works out.

On the the eve of my 28th Birthday, I'm reflecting on many things in my life. This has been a quite a good year for me. I've accomplished every goal that I've set out to do...well almost every goal.

Let's see....

- Go back to school. check
- Lose those unwanted pounds that I've gained. check...still working on that.
- Find another apartment. check
- Find stability and peace of mind. check
- Repair a few broken relationships. This issue has been a major part of my maturity process. I haven't rebuilt all the bridges that I've burned, but I'm trying...one phone call at a time. It's not easy and they all don't end with roses, but my "I'm sorry" is a good start.

I'm anxious to see what the rest of this year brings. I'm sleepy now...

Stupidity knows no bounds.

Teen hangs himself after meeting a woman from the internet...

I can't help but to shake my head at this. This kid hanged himself because the woman apparently lied about her looks.

Here's a quote from the article:

After weeks spent chatting with her online, he arranged a date on December 26 in Mudanjiang, 73 miles away from his home town.

"To his intense disappointment, his dream girl turned out to be a plain lady who was more than 10 years older than him," Xinhua said.

"His parents tried to comfort and console him but, his hopes crushed, he went out to a nearby hill and hanged himself on December 30."

In all likelihood, this kid had suicidal tendencies BEFORE he met with the woman. I can't imagine that her looks were the driving force to push him to hang himself. If he did hang himself because this woman was ugly, then it really says alot about how superficial we as humans have become. I assume that he fell for her based on conversation because they had been talking for a few weeks. The article doesn't suggest that any pictures were exchanged, so going on someone's verbal description of themselves really can't be trusted these days on the 'net.

I understand that meeting her was a big disappointment, but was it really THAT serious? She must've been one ugly heffa. Dang!

She may have been ugly, but ol' boy was high-strung! lol...get it? HIGH STRUNG? Oh nevermind! I crack myself up sometimes

It's been ages since I last updated the site. I have major plans underway for Ussclueless.net....

I've spent countless hours discussing the supernatural with my pastor. We have had some very interesting conversations. At sometimes, I feel conflicted about my interest in the paranormal because I am a Born-Again Christian, but that just makes me want to know even more. I feel that my believe in God & the Bible sort of validates my interest in the paranormal. That's another topic for another day and I'll be certain to delve into that as well.

Anyway...I think I'll call it a night. Goodnight

I first had Sangria at a job social quite some months ago. I was hesitant about drinking it because I find wine to be utterly unappealing. A co-worker encouraged me to try it. I tried it. I've been raving about it since. I'm not sure who made the drink, but I kept asking for the recipe. Of course, I never got the recipe but that didn't stop me from searching.

I have found a few equally wonderful Sangria recipes on Recipezaar.com. I made one of those recipes today for my bbq. The recipe is a White Wine Peach Sangria. Someone on recipezaar found this recipe in Bon Appetit magazine some time ago. I loathe white wine, but when I tried this recipe, I've gained a new respect for the wine I cast off awhile ago.

There has not been one person at the cook out who didn't like this recipe. Try it for yourself...

*disclaimer* Please drink in moderation as this is a "sipping" drink. This is a "bridal shower" type beverage to sip and chatter. Don't overdue it. One is enough. If you know you got an Alki in the bunch, then don't drink any at all.

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I jazzed it up a bit. I garnished it with frozen white peaches. and I went light on the peach brandy and added a little peach puree. I also siggest using fresh lemonade instead of the concentrate kind...it's too bitter for me. I also eliminated the green grapes and added fresh honeydew. That's my take on this lovely drink.

Enjoy!

White Wine Peach Sangria

1 (750 ml) bottle dry white wine
3/4 cup peach brandy
6 tablespoons frozen lemonade concentrate, thawed
1/4 cup granulated sugar
8 ounces frozen unsweetened peach slices
3/4 cup fresh green seedless grapes, halved
3/4 cup fresh red seedless grapes, halved

1. Sitr together wine, brandy, thawed lemonade concentrate, and sugar until sugar has dissolved.
2. Add fruit and chill for 2 hours, or until very cold.
3. Serve chilled over ice.